You feel it too, don't you ?

When your parents compare you with others, like these guys/girls that managed to finish their studies on Engineering and some study Médecin and have greater marks, when my surrendings compare me to them i feel like if i haven't accomplished nothing up till now, the truth is somehow harash...I live on my dad house everything that i have and that i got is his...i even fought hard to prove him his wrong on me but still...i haven't got another...i had no ultimate goal just Fight for what he want me to Become... Now i kind of feel some sort of
depression although everything i don't really know how can i deal with this...when you see others in your âge (23) already made it out...i mean they live alone they aren't under their parents care...they some find their "Love" à sort of feeling i never felt since i only live with men and only have few friend which are men...the only woman i really knew left us ( God reste her soul) black in 30 septembre 2010...still remember this Day like if it's today, i remember the community i was into, the next Day i went à topic about my loss they laughed and trolled me.
I don't know, i feel like an old man..on my 70's i have no great skill nothing im really good at...most of these past day i only keep on sleeping... Although i got what i mentioned on the previous tropical...i 'm kind of really need some great support over this issue...i really want to listen to someone Who is older and has some experience...
/Please if your here to provoque me, i won't répond to you...i don't want to repeat what happened Last year.
Thanks for reading.